Friday, January 29, 2010
Supposed to be || sleeping/studying
Writing || Pengel's Universe
Moving to Wordpress, that clandestine lover of mine. Maybe that'll inspire more frequent posting. Or maybe that'll just inspire insanity. Not sure why I do these things to myself.
More bullet points! Lately:
- 23 unit quarter... out of possible 20 units. What? Yes. 4 classes, 1 lab, 1 research position, and 1 TA job. No units or pay for TAing this quarter, but such is life.
- Periodic contemplation of social suicide. Group studying needs to be phased out of my life plan.
- Taking a fiction writing class forces me to read and forces me to write. This is a good thing.
- Mediocre short story for my genomics seminar (Pandora's Box, unedited on Parting Pigeons) won the 2008-09 Stanford Introductory Seminars Excellence Award. I plan to be socially inept at the awards luncheon in approximately three weeks.
- As always when busy, I am once again taking up projects in earnest. Extempore, Kethadros conversion to Wordpress, short stories, Banjocats...
In other news, a majority of the friends I live with are going abroad next quarter. It saddens me to see them go, so all that can be done is party it up while they're still here. Hence, OH THE PALOMANATEE, the manatee-themed nautical no-pants party this Saturday, at which I have committed myself as the 3rd party ship-placer of BEERTLESHIP.
I will now proceed to sleep for 6.5 hours then take a midterm. That is all.
(FYI, Parting Pigeons has been updated regularly AND has an RSS feed. Handy, I know.)
Smos | | tags: blog
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Supposed to be || finishing work from my summer job
Why can't everything be okay right now? Too many people are hurting for this to be healthy.
And me? Well, nothing's wrong with me as usual. How often do I have something to complain about that's actually about me? Rarely. I'd say I don't want to care about other people's problems, but that's just not true.
It just makes my misery a little less substantial, and hold a little less weight. But that's not to say it doesn't hurt.
So enough of this "everything's going to be okay" nonsense. It's going to be okay now, damn it.
Smos | | tags: blog
Friday, November 13, 2009
Latest Inspiration || Kris Cheng's photography (www.krischeng.com)
Supposed to be || catching up and studying
Okay, OKAY. Yes, I fail at life. Maybe one of these days I'll learn to blog regularly but excuse me while I go have a laugh attack at the thought.
SO. Life is good, relatively speaking. I'm sick for the third time this quarter, although a new variation of sick. First I had H1N1 (not confirmed), then a sinus infection, and now the standard sore-throat-stuffy-nose cold. Good times. Good times with functions, my friends. By which I really mean WILL SOMEBODY PLEASE GET ME A NEW IMMUNE SYSTEM?! I mean, really, is this frequency of illness really necessary?
In other news, I have not written anything productive in several months. Nor have I drawn/photoshopped anything in that time. I have, however, taken some photos, which I'll post here as soon as I get my act together and scale/crop them all. There's quite a backlog, seeing as I haven't posted any since February 2008. Quite a few noteworthy things have been captured in that time.
Ummmm (potentially) interesting things of late:
- I suck at stats.
- I also suck at physical chemistry.
- This quarter is about as academically uninteresting as possible.
- I have honors thesis research?!
- I have Ubuntu?!
- My just-over-four-month-old EMT-B certification has gotten lots of use and I have now been hit on by a drunk patient, gotten annoyed at AMR paramedics, and been promoted to Assistant BLS coordinator for Stanford EMS. Say what?
- I am excellent at herding people.
- I don't think my parents are aware that I am an EMT class TA, or that I've worked all but one home football game this year. Not sure if this is an issue.
I have nothing else productive to say at this point. Maybe I will get my act together when I am less sick?
OH WAIT. Project in progress: Extempore Literary Magazine. It's going to be legen--wait for it--DARY. Provided I can put the website together and hire a staff. Like really, why do I do these things to myself? Bwahaha someone remind me not to write blog posts while sick and delirious.
Smos | | tags: blog
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Currently || packing for school
Latest Inspiration || finding a friend's DA profile
There are tiny insects crawling on my desk. I smash one and another shows up five seconds later. They're strangely hydra-like.
But don't mind me, I'm just killing bugs.
Smos | | tags: blog
Friday, August 28, 2009
Currently || nostalgic
Writing || Amos-Esther stories
As I am wont to do, I've been skimming old emails and journal entries. I found some tidbits that I feel the need to post...
"I won’t disapprove of who you have become, because you are my friend. For better or for worse, I will always be here for you. My question is, will you always be there for me? Or will I just be sitting here at 3 in the morning trying not to cry because I lost one of my closest friends to that annoying little thing called life? You tell me. You tell me where to go from here." (11/12/08)
"I asked [her] the other day if she still kept in touch with her high school friends, especially since she took a year off after high school to travel and volunteer and do stuff, and she said people come and go, and with some of them it's just a matter of waiting for them to come to their senses again. In a way I want to give [him] his space and just hope he'll come back, but I have a feeling things will never be the way they were in high school again. It'll always just be two people catching up and talking about surface stuff because it's too much of an investment to get into a heavy conversation." (11/19/08)
"Why do I think so goddamn much? What am I afraid of?" (1/31/09)
"I feel like in the past month or so, I have become that much more sure of who I am, but exponentially less sure of where I am in my world. I am trapped by uncertainties, wondering whether to change this person I am so certain of to fit into this world I don’t understand. I know what I am missing, what I want. I just don’t know how to get to it. I find we live our lives pigeonholed by circumstance. If things had just happened a little differently; if we had met at some other time..." (4/27/09)
"Normally I would gripe about boys being stupid, especially with the gender’s track record these past couple of weeks. The truth is girls are equally stupid. In the end, it comes down to the fact that we are all human -- much as we try to use our logic and try to function in each other's company, we are fundamentally selfish, needy, demanding, and forgetful. We inflict pain and confusion upon each other without entirely meaning to. Things come out wrong, circumstances make situations worse, and habit leads us to do stupid things." (5/10/09)
"Maybe my subconscious is hoping that feeling like shit on someone's behalf will make everything better. Of course, it doesn't (in fact, it's counterproductive) but how about you try to tell my subconscious not to think something and see how far you get." (7/15/09)
And so I find myself trapped in the same situation I was in a year ago, and feeling just as shitty about it. Eventually I'll find a way to dig myself out of this kind of mess. Until then, I should go sort out what the hell is happening in my social calendar for the next 72 hours, because it's going to be epic and terrible. I can tell.
Smos | | tags: blog
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Supposed to be || building a phylogenetic tree
In Oregon doing lab work on pollen.
Is hot.
Am sleepy... and hungry.
Like predicates.
Smos | | tags: blog
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Currently || working on The Game: Operation Uzilevsky
It seems, judging from the soundtrack coming from the living room, that my dad is watching anime.
But actually it's some super intense Japanese film involving samurai with badass voices and badass-sounding lines, giggly female characters, and anime-esque background music.
You can't fault me for hearing Japanese and thinking anime when the background music is so anime-esque.
Remember that chapter in my life when I watched anime? Good times. Although I heard I stopped watching Bleach and Naruto right when they started deteriorating into shitshows because they'd caught up with the manga and the producers had no idea what was going on anymore. But like I said, good times.
Smos | | tags: blog
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Currently || plotting
I'm looking at Facebook photos of one of my few 30+ friends on Facebook, and all I can think is: "Please someone tell me my friends and I won't be dressed in ridiculous outfits playing beer pong when we're over 30."
But I guess why the hell not?
Smos | | tags: blog
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Latest Inspiration || the beach. as always.
Baking is therapeutic. Therefore, I'm going to go bake a pound cake. Alone, thanks.
More interesting post later.
Smos | | tags: blog